No emo

Haven't been feeling any emo-shit all these while, sometimes one need to be emo to reflect and feel. I just need something to spice my emotions and make me really feel what's happening around me. School's been like 3 weeks and I'm feeling exhausted at the end of each day. It's not easy being a year 2 as what I've expected, expectation always don't match with the reality. I'm so numb by my surroundings and stuffs that's happening, is a very strange feeling that I don't even know how to describe. Looking on the lighter note, perhaps I'm doing pretty well and at this point I don't need anything. I'm not even sure about it myself, seriously, I don't even know what I'm typing. Is one of those days whereby you sat down in front of your lappy and things just started to generate in your mind and you find so lost to find answers to it. Somehow I wanted to be freed from my emotions and feel what I want to feel, but right now I feel so lost yet calm and serene. It's hard to even say out how and what I'm going through. Whatever it is, perhaps I'm just looking forward and expecting a lot more which isn't happening at the moment.